Erase me
The rules of engagement are rigid and I
more than anyone should understand their
application. But what a shame it is to be
erased. To be feared so when all I feel is
nostalgia and humility. It's almost too ironic
how it all played out — my medicine is
acrid and bitter, but it purges my body
of its ailments. I am only stronger now
for bearing the weight of tables turned
against me. I must disappear for your new
life to exist. And I'm equal parts
impressed and furious with you for so
strictly abiding by the laws of trust
that broke me when
you broke them when
I used to wake up next to you.
Lucky girl — she gets the polished version.
But I had the delicious rawness of an
uncontrollable desire and, while the object
of that desire must change, the force
of its honesty pulses fire through these
veins. I know you must forget me, but
I hold fast to the memory of that which
you ignited within me.
I wonder if she wonders about me.
more than anyone should understand their
application. But what a shame it is to be
erased. To be feared so when all I feel is
nostalgia and humility. It's almost too ironic
how it all played out — my medicine is
acrid and bitter, but it purges my body
of its ailments. I am only stronger now
for bearing the weight of tables turned
against me. I must disappear for your new
life to exist. And I'm equal parts
impressed and furious with you for so
strictly abiding by the laws of trust
that broke me when
you broke them when
I used to wake up next to you.
Lucky girl — she gets the polished version.
But I had the delicious rawness of an
uncontrollable desire and, while the object
of that desire must change, the force
of its honesty pulses fire through these
veins. I know you must forget me, but
I hold fast to the memory of that which
you ignited within me.
I wonder if she wonders about me.