My fault
Feeling weak and small,
am I justified in wondering?
You have been here all along,
asking for this,
fighting for this --
but still I do not know.
Is my insecurity within me?
Is it mine alone?
Perhaps this is a darkness I must battle on my own.
So I will go,
I cannot bear the weight of your
innocent indiscretion in conversation
with her.
And it is not even her that poses a threat
to this,
nor is it you --
rather, it is I that stand
to ruin this
destroying piece by poorly constructed piece,
violently throwing shared belongings
into the unkempt yard
until there is nothing left but
a foundation
that could not stand the test of time.
am I justified in wondering?
You have been here all along,
asking for this,
fighting for this --
but still I do not know.
Is my insecurity within me?
Is it mine alone?
Perhaps this is a darkness I must battle on my own.
So I will go,
I cannot bear the weight of your
innocent indiscretion in conversation
with her.
And it is not even her that poses a threat
to this,
nor is it you --
rather, it is I that stand
to ruin this
destroying piece by poorly constructed piece,
violently throwing shared belongings
into the unkempt yard
until there is nothing left but
a foundation
that could not stand the test of time.